Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Well, I know it has been a couple of days but when I started this blog I never intended to write something every day.  Plus, the simple little details in my life are really not that interesting, but something has been on my mind and I'd like to share it with you.

About a week ago, I got a call from my doctor's office.  I was scheduled to have a routine ultrasound to check out the baby's development etc. today but the call was to cancel the ultrasound.  The nurse was very nice in explaining why.  She stated that my maternal serum levels were positive.  

Now, for those of you who don't know anything about this, it's a bloodwork test done around 10 weeks and then again around 16 weeks to test to see if your baby has Down Syndrome.  The test comes back positive or negative.  BUT, this does not mean your baby is positive for Down's or negative, it just means that your levels are higher or lower than the normal range.  Well, mine were positive.  She asked if I would be able to go to Halifax for a more detailed ultrasound.  Without hesitation I agreed.  Our appointment is tomorrow.  

I have not told a whole lot of people about this mainly because I don't want everyone worried and I don't want to get worked up about it either. And I have known a lot of people that have gone over to Halifax and it was just nothing. 

BUT, one person that I did talk to warned me that they make ask if I would like to terminate the baby......****GASP**** WHAT?  I guess this is a normal procedure and in this day and age, it's so simple to do.  So easy to have it our way and not God's way.

For the most part I have been calm and not worried at all.  Part of me feels that everything is going to be ok, it's just nothing....but there is that percentage of me that is saying but what if everything is not ok?

Over the past week as I've been preparing myself for tomorrow, the Lord has laid some verses on my heart.  A lot of them are from Psalm 139.  This baby is well protected and well loved, not only by Josh and myself but by the Lord, the great Protector, the Great Physician, the King of Kings!

Psalms 139:13-17

" For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.

I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!"

He knows us.  He created us. His thoughts are precious unto us.  He loves us.

Isaiah 55:8-9 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, andmy thoughts than your thoughts."

My ways are not His ways and His thoughts are not my thoughts.  He is completely in control.  He knows what is best because He loves me, and He has watched over me since the beginning of my life. He has a plan.  

So, what if our baby has Down Syndrome?  We will love this baby no matter what! because he or she is fearfully and wonderfully made by our Creator.  He has given us this precious gift to take care of.  

We love you baby Poole and can't wait to see you tomorrow.