Complete Or Not Complete

So, I've always thought that when I had my last child I would feel a sense of completeness.  That imaginary feeling that says, she/he completes our family.  I'm not sure this feeling actually exists - I think that I maybe know people who have had this feeling but I'm not feeling it like I thought I would.  Does this "feeling" happen? Or is it just a mindset that once you get to your last child you will feel that your family is complete?

I always wanted 4 children.  Josh also wanted a big family.  We agreed on 4+/- children but took it one step(s) (fast steps) at a time. :)  I thought that maybe Titus would be our last child, but I did want one more.  Adaya.  I mean, really, you can't have odd numbers right?! HA!  As I sit here contemplating this "feeling" of completeness for our family, that I have not yet experienced and may never experience, I realized that my completeness and satisfaction can only be found in Christ.

Things of this world will pass away.  People will come and go.  We will always strive/want for something better.  We will always want more than what we have.  Why are we so discontent?  God tells us in Hebrews 13:5 "and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee."

Now, don't get me wrong.  I'm very content right now with my new precious babe.  And the point I'm trying to make isn't about having one baby or multiple babies and being content. But rather to be satisfied with Christ and Him alone.

This is not an easy task to do.  We live in a world where we can have anything we want (if we work for it).  Higher educations, better paying jobs, bigger houses, trinkets, gadgets, better this, better that.  We have it all at our finger tips.  The problem with that is that we are never satisfied.  There will always be something better that we want.  Paul says in Philippians 4:11 that he had to learn to be content with the things that he had.  We too have to learn to be content with what the Lord has given us.  We don't deserve anything that we have.  He is gracious to us, an undeserving people.

So my challenge for myself is to try to be satisfied and complete in Him alone.  He gives me all that I need.  He is more than I could ever want.  Pray for me as I try to know Him better, to rely solely on Him and not my ways.  To run the race well that is set before me.

Two days ago, I woke up and it was a cool sunny morning.  The 3 oldest children were still in bed, as was Josh.  I got up and came downstairs to feed Adaya.  As I stared at her beautiful face, I couldn't help but to feel content.  It was quiet and I was able to meditate on the Lord and all that He has given me.  Who am I to ask for more or better?  He has blessed me beyond measure.  He has blessed me with more than I deserve.  What a loving God I serve.  I was thankful this morning for a quiet time, for snuggles with this beauty, and for all that He has given me.  My family is complete.....for now :)